This is your last chance.

After this, there is no turning back.

You take the blue pill - the story ends,
you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe.
You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland
and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes.


 
-Morpheus,  The Matrix

Dear Heavenly Father,

 Thank you for this day, for this laptop, for this desire you have planted in me  to share my personal story of Salvation. I pray that whomsoever reads this may be Blessed and led to Freedom. I pray that my story is not boring! I pray that you Lord will guide me as I write and I ask for the courage to keep writing even through the painful parts. I pray that in these dark and perilous times that we live in that this book will even be published and I pray that you (the reader) will stay with me from the beginning to the end.

Where to start. Firstly, I will be upfront, this is a story about The Lord Jesus Christ. This is not fictional. This is a story about madness and demonic possession. It really is not for the faint of heart, nor is it meant to be easy to read. In fact, I'm sure you will scoff, and balk at my words, and put the book down and not touch it for weeks.  But I am just as sure that you will pick it up again out of a mingled desire of curiosity and hopefully (for your sake!) a genuine love of the Truth.

And just what is the Truth? As of today, this ninth day of December in the year 2015, my understanding of the Truth is that we human beings are created by God, he who created the Heavens and the Earth. We were created in his image including his emotions. Adam, the first man, and Eve, the first woman lived in the Garden of Eden. Adam named all the animals. They were given one instruction, not to eat the fruit from the Tree of Knowledge, because if they did they would surely die! The evil fallen angel named Lucifer disguised himself as a serpent and lied to Eve, telling her that she would not die but would become like Gods if they partook of the fruit. Needless to say, she did, and Sin came into the world, into our human bodies, and into our hearts. This Sin caused a separation from God forever because all Sin belongs in the Everlasting Fires of Hell. However, God so Loved the world and us humankind that he sent his one and only son, Jesus Christ, to die as a sacrifice to pay for our sins. (This is a bit later on in history) His Blood is Holy and sanctifies us, not only does it wash us clean of our sins we can be reconnected to God too and have eternal life in Heaven and not have to go to Hell by accepting Lord Jesus Christ as our savior.

So that is the Truth. Seriously. That is like, real. That is what went down. So what does that mean?  What makes Christians think they have a right telling other people what to believe? What kind of Loving God would throw his children into Hell? How do I know that it is real?
Well, that is why I am writing this book.

Thursday 10/12th/2015

I am curled up on my couch listening to gentle harp music playing on YouTube that I can watch on my smart TV. My partner, my divine beloved twin flame soulmate has called me asking if I would like a Croissant from the shop, my beautiful son is sleeping, I am eating a piece of Grape flavored licorice and the air conditioner blows cool air upon me as I sit and type this. Bible verses flash on the screen superimposed over peaceful nature photographs. I look up to see Malachi chapter three verse six,

 "For I am the Lord. I change not."

Tuesday 15th /12th/ 2015

Days have gone by since I last wrote, most spent in a haze of fatigue. Jesse is teething and whining and we have a new small brown mongrel puppy. How am I supposed to save souls for the Lord when I can barely find time to do anything? I can barely hear myself think. Paul is sick and has a sore back so he's out of commission. I am so tired. All I want to do is sleep and then spend four or five hours all by myself. I feel so depressed again, in such a rut.

Friday 18/12/2015

So last night was horrible, Paul and I had an argument. Most arguments between people are never really only about the surface topic, underneath it all are the layers of pain, the hurt, confusion, anger, buried rage, and sadness. The wounds we all have from our life experiences.  Most people fight and deliberately hurt each other and the wounds fester. They ignore each other and don't apologise and then a rift begins. The blessing with Twin Flames is that we fight and we cannot help but rage and cry as the wounded child, adolescent or even baby lets out his or her feelings, buried deep down, long ago when the trauma occurred. And being Twin Flames we understand this process and are compassionate and forgiving toward one another, accepting that these feelings really have less to do with what we have said or done and more from what others have said or done.  The lesson to learn here is forgiveness and compassion. True forgiveness and truly caring and feeling for the other person, softening our hearts in this troubled, fallen world. Just like Jesus Christ taught, because you know, he's right.

On a different yet related note, last night I dreamt of a former "flame". We were waiting in line for some kind of registration office. He was ahead of me, and he didn't seem to think anything was wrong. I, however, was very afraid. He knelt down, bowed his head, crossed his chest and accepted the Lord Jesus Christ as his saviour, as if it were a last minute decision as if he thought he could knowingly sin all his life and then accept Jesus when he felt it was convenient.
" Lord Jesus please protect me, " I prayed,  then a sliding door opened automatically and my former flame stepped through the door, then looked back expectedly at me, "Come on, are you coming in?" I looked past him and saw an eerie red glow begin to fill the room he was in. I said, " errr.... I dunno...."

"It's Heaven. Don't you want to come into Heaven?" he said, excitedly. Again I looked past him and I saw smoke beginning to rise.
"Uhhh... I am pretty sure that's not Heaven..." I said, stepping backwards.  Then I began to say Revelation chapter eleven verse fourteen. I began to scream it actually, in the vain hope that my ex would put two and two together, "And the smoke of their torment ascendeth up for ever and ever! Look, Look at the smoke!" The smoke had begun to fill the room and the red glow began to glow orange. I don't know if he went in but as soon as I quoted scripture I woke up.
Remember that, because that is important.

So that is actually what spurred me to write today, I am terrified of going to Hell. I mean, there is no way out, Hell is FOREVER. FOOR-EV-AH. No escaping. No getting out. Never ending the torment. Constant pain, fear and anguish, suffering, torture.  Sure we have bad times on earth but at least they end, at least we can be in the situation, take a deep breath and say," this too, shall pass." No matter how bad it is, it comes to an end eventually. Hell, however, is never ending AGONY. And you know what? 999/1000 people on this earth will go there when they die. Matthew chapter seven verse thirteen says: Enter you in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leads to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat.

My soul is greatly troubled and saddened about Hell, for the people who are there, even Jesus Christ cannot save them once they have been consigned there. And it is by the grace of our Loving Creator God, our heavenly Father that I am saved. It is by his mercy and his grace ALONE that I can rest assured of my salvation. Because if I had died about two years ago I would have gone straight to Hell, even though I had accepted Jesus Christ as my savior. I would be there now, and forever, my skin bubbling and blistering, flames shooting out of my eyeballs, worms crawling through my skeleton. Screaming in horrible pain, not being able to have a cool refreshing drink of water, feel the warm sunshine or a soft breeze, not have a hug or a kiss from my loved ones or enjoy a cheese and tomato sandwich. I used to have ham in my sandwich but pigs are unclean.  They are poisonous.
No laughing matter. Serious stuff. A sobering thought to be sure. I feel that the dream is showing that accepting the Lord Jesus Christ and not doing anything else does not guarantee Heaven. Accepting the Lord Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior of your life is a commitment, like marriage, where you become born again, and the supernatural power of God begins to transform you. We are the appliance, Jesus is the power cord  and our Creator is the socket. Life was meant to be lived "plugged in" to God with the switch turned on.

On that note, I will be headed to bed. I have a very vivid dream life, I have always had spiritual experiences and many many insights revealed to me through dreams.

God speaks to us all in our dreams.

19/12/2015 Saturday

Today is the Sabbath Day! The real Sabbath day.

Remember the Sabbath day, to keep it holy. Six days you shall labor and do all your work, but the seventh day is the Sabbath of the Lord your God. In it, you shall do no work: you, nor your son, nor your daughter, nor your male servant, nor your female servant, nor your cattle, nor your stranger who is within your gates. For in six days the Lord made the heavens and the earth, the sea, and all that is in them, and rested the seventh day. Therefore the Lord blessed the Sabbath day and hallowed it.
Exodus 20:2-17 NKJV

That's nice isn't it, one day a week to rest and worship the Lord.  So you are probably saying, "But you are writing this on Saturday! Isn't Sunday the Sabbath?" I can assure you, that it truly is not. I can also assure you that those that are treating Sunday as the Sabbath are breaking the fourth commandment of the ten, especially if you work on a Saturday. Which many people do in this century and generation. And Sunday is a Pagan worship day. Sun Day. A day to worship the Sun. Just like the ancient Egyptians worshipped the Sun God Ra. The populace observes Sunday instead of Saturday because of the Catholic Church. In the Council of Laodicea (AD 336) the Sabbath was changed to Sunday. Which does not make it the original day that God intended us to rest and keep Holy. Saturday feels different, has a different vibe. It is a blessed, hallowed day.

"And God blessed the seventh day and made it holy" (Genesis 2:3)

Tuesday 22nd December 2015

And so it is Christmas. A time of celebrating the birth of Jesus Christ by following the rituals of the pagan holiday Saturnalia against the advice of the Bible.

Jeremiah 10 NIV
1 Hear what the LORD says to you, O house of Israel.
2 This is what the LORD says:
"Do not learn the ways of the nations
or be terrified by signs in the sky,
though the nations are terrified by them.
3 For the customs of the peoples are worthless;
they cut a tree out of the forest,
and a craftsman shapes it with his chisel.
 4 They adorn it with silver and gold;
they fasten it with hammer and nails
so it will not totter.

8/01/2016

Happy New Year!

I must relay my dream to you, from two nights ago.
I was in a recreational sports centre, playing a game with my cousin who I love dearly, and some other women. We were all playing happily until flashes of light began to appear in the dark night sky. All of us stopped to gaze at the sky which began to play pictures like a movie projector. I saw Barack Obama's face, then it vanished, replaced by an image of the world. A dark brown hand closed over the entire world, and I saw a RFID microchip had been placed in it. The colours in the sky images began to run down to earth, light and colour transmogrified together to form what seemed  to be a gigantic shopping centre. Celebrities and smiling people were in the store and the girls at the sports centre all were in awe at the sight and began to walk toward the shopping centre. My cousin got up to follow the rest of the girls until I grabbed her by the wrist and said, "Don't follow the Crowd! It's not right, you can see that it's not right, it is evil!"
I woke up in fright. Barack Obama is fitting biblical descriptions of the antichrist and Pope Francis fits the false prophet, I was alerted to this by my 2014 vision that I will tell you about very soon.
So the Antichrist (Obama) will enforce the whole world to receive the Mark of the Beast so that without it no person may buy and sell.

Revelation 13 (KJV)
13 And I stood upon the sand of the sea, and saw a beast rise up out of the sea, having seven heads and ten horns, and upon his horns ten crowns, and upon his heads the name of blasphemy.
2 And the beast which I saw was like unto a leopard, and his feet were as the feet of a bear, and his mouth as the mouth of a lion: and the dragon gave him his power, and his seat, and great authority.
3 And I saw one of his heads as it were wounded to death, and his deadly wound was healed: and all the world wondered after the beast.
4 And they worshipped the dragon which gave power unto the beast: and they worshipped the beast, saying, Who is like unto the beast? who is able to make war with him?
5 And there was given unto him a mouth speaking great things and blasphemies, and power was given unto him to continue forty and two months.
6 And he opened his mouth in blasphemy against God, to blaspheme his name, and his tabernacle, and them that dwell in heaven.
7 And it was given unto him to make war with the saints, and to overcome them: and power was given him over all kindreds, and tongues, and nations.
8 And all that dwell upon the earth shall worship him, whose names are not written in the book of life of the Lamb slain from the foundation of the world.
9 If any man have an ear, let him hear.
10 He that leadeth into captivity shall go into captivity: he that killeth with the sword must be killed with the sword. Here is the patience and the faith of the saints.
11 And I beheld another beast coming up out of the earth, and he had two horns like a lamb, and he spake as a dragon.
12 And he exerciseth all the power of the first beast before him and causeth the earth and them which dwell therein to worship the first beast, whose deadly wound was healed.
13 And he doeth great wonders so that he maketh fire come down from heaven on the earth in the sight of men,
14 And deceiveth them that dwell on the earth by the means of those miracles which he had power to do in the sight of the beast; saying to them that dwell on the earth, that they should make an image to the beast, which had the wound by a sword, and did live.
15 And he had power to give life unto the image of the beast, that the image of the beast should both speak, and cause that as many as would not worship the image of the beast should be killed.
16 And he causeth all, both small and great, rich and poor, free and bond, to receive a mark in their right hand, or in their foreheads:
17 And that no man might buy or sell, save he that had the mark, or the name of the beast, or the number of his name.
18 Here is wisdom. Let him that hath understanding count the number of the beast: for it is the number of a man; and his number is Six hundred threescore and six.

Let me tell you more about the New World Order and the all-seeing eye, 11:11 and the Coming of the Lord Jesus Christ.

If you are still asleep, follow the white rabbit and read on.

Monday 11/01/2016 9:42am

Jesse is playing happily in his room, toast has been eaten, coffee ingested.
I am watching youtube on the smart television which is where I get most of my information, that in itself may cause some of you to groan because it is not a 'trusted reliable source' hah! Yeah right! Do you think your Government monitored and controlled brainwashing FREE TO AIR TV is a reliable source? think again. The Devil aka Prince of Darkness is referred to as the Power of the Air. Airwaves, radio frequencies, WiFi electricity, Mobile radiation, computer bytes, can you think of any more? Speaking of Television and Hollywood films not only do they pack them full of occult symbolism, they also heavily influence your SUBCONSCIOUS MIND and modify your behaviour, to keep you dumb, to keep you out of the way so that they can carry on with their nefarious plans. Also, if you have Foxtel or Cable TV or NETFLIX they make you pay for your own mental imprisonment. All ruling powers FEAR the masses due to our sheer size, so they have established methods of keeping us divided and therefore conquered, and those methods have been growing in sophistication since the dark ages.
As Jesse is now no longer playing happily in his room but is now crying around my feet  I must go!

12/01/2016 5:02 PM

David Bowie died yesterday. I can't seem to get Space Oddity out of my head, "Ground control to Major Tom... commencing countdown engines on..."
When I was still asleep I used to think that David Bowie was an interesting, eclectic artist. I can see that he was heavily interested in the occult and was a member of The Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn, a secret society of which the founder of the Church of Satan, Anton LaVey, was also a member. The music video for David Bowie's Black Star is a Black Magick ritual. The unlucky recipients  of such dark forces? The people who are not protected by the Blood of Christ, on whom such spells have no power.

Father, please forgive them for they know not what they do.

14/01/2016 3:41am

Cannot sleep. my brain is buzzing with thoughts. I have joined a group on facebook called Conspiracy Realists Exposing Elite Agenda! and I normally end up arguing with those whose hearts have been hardened to the Lord.
One comment from a bloke said, "Where are all the Truthers, it's just a bunch of flat earthers and Jesus freaks in here."
And oddly enough, that bothers me. Not enough to keep me up all night, I lay awake fearing for the people who will be left behind after the rapture to face the wrath of the Antichrist Barack Obama. The power has already gone to the man's head, thankfully more and more people are undergoing a mass spiritual awakening, so the Spirit of God is moving on the masses.
"Us Jesus Freaks and flat earthers ARE the Truthers," I replied.

14/01/2016 12:48 pm

Had a sleep in for I did not fall asleep til 6 am! Luckily it was Paul's morning to watch Jesse and he kindly let me sleep. He is undergoing a Kundalini Awakening just like me. I am currently watching a message from God given to one his people, uploaded to YouTube... here is the transcript

Prophetic Word Received by Messenger Gwendolen Rix on 9-11-14

My dear children,
You mean everything to me and my Son. We have gone through extreme measures to draw you unto us as the beginning birth pains have begun across the earth. The judgments are on their way, my children. Seeking safety through these judgments means a full surrender in every area of your lives. The enemy seeks to destroy you. I seek to bring you peace. I will deliver my doves of peace too if you call upon my name. These doves are real and they descend from my throne room.
I want to discuss with each of my children the power within my doves of peace at this time. My doves of peace are real birds. If you were able to see into the spiritual realm you could see their beauty. Do you remember when the Pope released his doves of peace from the window at the Basilica last spring and the ravens came to attack them? My children, the Pope was trying to insult me and my Son when he released those peace doves during that ceremony. He has no desire to bring peace to the world just as I have no desire to bring him into my heavenlies. He is mocking me and my Son with his artificial doves because he knows the true significance of them here in my heavenlies.

My doves of peace are true supernatural phenomena here and they are treated with great respect. Whenever one of my earthly children are going through a difficult time and call upon my name or my Son's name, they are released to descend upon their shoulders. They have a supernatural anointing within them as they descend upon your shoulders. I sent these same doves to my son Stephen as he was being stoned. I also send these doves of peace to Noah and his family as they began their journey across the floodwaters of the earth. I have sent many doves of peace to my children who have served me on battlefields across the earth, as well as Christians who were slaughtered in the ongoing caliphate. They are powerful and neutralize fear and anxiety. Please remember to call upon my name in the upcoming days of destruction and I will send my doves of peace to each of you. I love you all with everything in me and I desire for none of you to suffer.

The next topic that I want to discuss are the measures that are being taken by the governments of the world to destroy your sun. In my Holy Word, it states that all the things that I and my Son have created worship me from where ever they are stationed. It also states that the rocks even cry out unto my name when my children are silent. My children, even the sun, moon, and stars worship the Creator from where they are. The greatest light in the universe is the sun within your solar system. It is true no matter what NASA or any other space scientist may try to tell you. I placed the two greatest lights in the universe within your star system. The first great light is the Light of the World and that light is my Son, Jesus. The second greatest light within your star system is the sun. Yes, your sun! There has been much attention given to it with news articles and stories within the past several years.

Children, I want you to understand something now. Nothing that you are being shown on the news is actual as it seems. They are showing solar flaring and discussing electromagnetic disturbances from these events. Children, first of all, my mighty sun is not burning up. It is not predestined to self-destruct within a certain amount of time. Everything that I and my Son have created is created with backup measures and healing energy; the sun included. What you have been told regarding the sun is a slow calculated plan that has been going on for decades as the governments of the world have been sending nuclear bombs into the sun's surface. They have been working with Lucifer and his minions to destroy the sun as Lucifer has deceived them into thinking that the sun will eventually self-implode and destroy the earth. Every day NASA has been secretly taking harnessed nuclear energy and releasing it against the second greater light as another measure to try and destroy your planet and everything on it. No light means no existence, children. The earth will become frozen and the plants will no longer grow. If you pray and ask my Holy Spirit to guide you, I will send confirmations to each of my children of this knowledge.

The NWO (New World Order) sends messages to Lucifer through movie and sporting events upon your earth. The movie released last year called "Frozen" was a signal to Lucifer that everything that they have planned is right on schedule. Remember the name of the most famous movie series of all time, "Star Wars?" Children, the Illuminati have been sending smoke signals to their King for a very long time of their devotion to him. Everything that has been going on in the spiritual realm has been telegraphed through your entertainment and sporting events. I will have my Holy Spirit also show you this if you sincerely come before me in prayer.
I love all of you, dear children. We are almost at the conclusion of the Church Era. It is time to usher in a new era, the Millennium. Please understand in your hearts how difficult this task of closing out this era is for my Son and me too. We have to proceed with the upcoming judgments now and we want you to also pray for your Creator and his Son. We are in this together and want to assure you that the Millennial Era will be free of the evil dictator Lucifer and his minions. One thousand years of freedom from the oppression of sin! It will be pure bliss, my children. Please try to look forward to this new era as it is moments away.

In conclusion, I want to explain one last thing. I want to explain to you the plan upon the earth for my two witnesses. My two witnesses will traverse the globe proclaiming my glory and my Son's second coming. If you are able to meet them, please be kind to them. You will never meet two nicer people in all the world. They have a mission, my children. Their mission is to announce to the governments of the world one last chance to serve me instead of Lucifer and his minions. They will pronounce judgments upon these governments that are trying to destroy the earth. They will execute destruction upon them and reestablish who is the real King of the earth, my beloved Son, Jesus! They will assist the 144,000 in rescuing the remnant that has remained after the rapture. They will coordinate rescue missions all across the globe of those who call upon my name or my Son's name. Remember children, we are Gods of Mercy. We are Gods of peace. We are pained at what is about to take place, and we are showing our true love by sending our two witnesses and the 144,000 across the earth.

I love you all with every fiber of my being, children. Please call upon me or my Son in your prayer closets and I will confirm every detail of this message. It is my desire to pour out my holy anointing oil upon each of you in confirmation of this message. I gave my everything for you. I gave my only begotten Son, Jesus.

Love eternally,
Jehovah God

Forgive me, Lord, for I am not sure of the Truth just now! Please pour out your Holy Spirit out on me so I may know!
 
Alan Rickman died today, rest in peace.

Monday 18/01/2016 6:09 pm

Today I went to the beach, I think my Ego is disintegrating because I seem to be fully immersed in the moment, in the actual sensory perception of the moment, I'm not forward thinking much and I'm feeling happy and grateful. I looked at the ocean water today, I mean I really looked at it, at the bubbles, the soft swish of the waves, the reflections of light off its surface, and it was beautiful.
I thought about what God said about his creation, His Sun, having healing energy, and the beach is so magically healing as well. I was in the luck of having the beach to myself, just me and my son, so I took the opportunity to speak aloud to God, the more I've been doing that the closer I've gotten to him, to the point where I saw golden light and what seemed like a fold of glowing white robe out of the corner of my eye.
He is so real, so loving.

Anyway... I have been dancing around the nitty gritty, why I have unshakeable faith in the Lord part of this story, and I realise I've just been yabbering away to you and you have no Idea who I am and what the heck I am on about.

So, Hello! My name is Katherine and  I am thirty years old. Thirty years old yet my soul is over millennia, so I'm over a thousand years old. I have a beautiful toddler named Jesse who is the product of my TwinFlame union with my divine counterpart, Paul. We met when I was 28 and I had become addicted to Heroin. I had first tried the drug about a year earlier, on a New Years Night and I became, well, enamoured I would say. I guess you could say I should have known better at that age, however, I had been battling the most crippling of all depressions I had ever faced at the time. My inner world was one of pain and torment, I was unemployed, I was single (yet ironically not short of suitors, they must have been suckers for punishment) I was battling a drug addiction that began from my teenage years, and I was possessed by an ancient demon. But of course I didn't realise that at the time, but looking back, I can see where it all began and can attempt to pinpoint how it actually happened.
First I will point out that I grew up with an absent father, although he was in my life via sporadic phone calls and a once a year trip to the city. My mother struggled with depression and alcohol addiction. She worked full time so I was often on my own after school and at nights sometimes and my elder sister was 11 years my senior so she didn't have much to do with me, although she was always nice when I saw her, she had moved out when I was 6. So I grew up with Low self-esteem, I felt unwanted and rejected, plus me being an unusual type of person I didn't quite fit in and others thought me weird. I am an artist and an intellectual and very shy, but once I was out of my shell my friends really liked me. But I had difficulty bonding with them closely or with anyone because I had formed insecure attachments with my parents as a child, which makes someone susceptible to bonding with Drugs instead. I was in a lot of emotional pain, and I was confused.
When I was in early high school I had many problems as teenagers do. I had fun, smoking pot, getting drunk hanging out with my mates, soon my little group of friends all had boyfriends and we'd all hang out smoking pot, talking on the phone after school, getting drunk.

Well after about year of friendships our group had gotten progressively depressed. I was always in a deep dark depression, we listened to Nine Inch Nails, KoRn and Marilyn Manson. We all began to cut ourselves, as many Manson fans are eerily influenced to do. I don't know how I came to be possessed exactly. I'm not blaming Marilyn Manson, he is just a symptom of the disease, an infected pixel in the machine. Was someone else around me possessed? Was it from bloodletting? Drugs? The type of music I listened to? Did someone place a curse on me? Was it a generational demon? I don't know. I don't really wish to get into that part of my life, it seems so Unholy, and that is because it was, there was a creepy stillness that would be in me and around me, a stillness that I mistook for peace or relief. Or perhaps that's just what I would tell myself to ignore the shivers of fear I was feeling. Denial is not just a river in Africa.
I was suicidal constantly and darkness consumed me, even though I had believed in God and Jesus as a child I started to believe there was no God, and It was truly the beginning of what was to become a living nightmare.