Friday 18/12/2015
So last night was horrible, Paul and I had an argument. Most arguments between people are never really only about the surface topic, underneath it all are the layers of pain, the hurt, confusion, anger, buried rage, and sadness. The wounds we all have from our life experiences. Most people fight and deliberately hurt each other and the wounds fester. They ignore each other and don't apologise and then a rift begins. The blessing with Twin Flames is that we fight and we cannot help but rage and cry as the wounded child, adolescent or even baby lets out his or her feelings, buried deep down, long ago when the trauma occurred. And being Twin Flames we understand this process and are compassionate and forgiving toward one another, accepting that these feelings really have less to do with what we have said or done and more from what others have said or done. The lesson to learn here is forgiveness and compassion. True forgiveness and truly caring and feeling for the other person, softening our hearts in this troubled, fallen world. Just like Jesus Christ taught, because you know, he's right.
On a different yet related note, last night I dreamt of a former "flame". We were waiting in line for some kind of registration office. He was ahead of me, and he didn't seem to think anything was wrong. I, however, was very afraid. He knelt down, bowed his head, crossed his chest and accepted the Lord Jesus Christ as his saviour, as if it were a last minute decision as if he thought he could knowingly sin all his life and then accept Jesus when he felt it was convenient.
" Lord Jesus please protect me, " I prayed, then a sliding door opened automatically and my former flame stepped through the door, then looked back expectedly at me, "Come on, are you coming in?" I looked past him and saw an eerie red glow begin to fill the room he was in. I said, " errr.... I dunno...."
"It's Heaven. Don't you want to come into Heaven?" he said, excitedly. Again I looked past him and I saw smoke beginning to rise.
"Uhhh... I am pretty sure that's not Heaven..." I said, stepping backwards. Then I began to say Revelation chapter eleven verse fourteen. I began to scream it actually, in the vain hope that my ex would put two and two together, "And the smoke of their torment ascendeth up for ever and ever! Look, Look at the smoke!" The smoke had begun to fill the room and the red glow began to glow orange. I don't know if he went in but as soon as I quoted scripture I woke up.
Remember that, because that is important.
So that is actually what spurred me to write today, I am terrified of going to Hell. I mean, there is no way out, Hell is FOREVER. FOOR-EV-AH. No escaping. No getting out. Never ending the torment. Constant pain, fear and anguish, suffering, torture. Sure we have bad times on earth but at least they end, at least we can be in the situation, take a deep breath and say," this too, shall pass." No matter how bad it is, it comes to an end eventually. Hell, however, is never ending AGONY. And you know what? 999/1000 people on this earth will go there when they die. Matthew chapter seven verse thirteen says: Enter you in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leads to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat.
My soul is greatly troubled and saddened about Hell, for the people who are there, even Jesus Christ cannot save them once they have been consigned there. And it is by the grace of our Loving Creator God, our heavenly Father that I am saved. It is by his mercy and his grace ALONE that I can rest assured of my salvation. Because if I had died about two years ago I would have gone straight to Hell, even though I had accepted Jesus Christ as my savior. I would be there now, and forever, my skin bubbling and blistering, flames shooting out of my eyeballs, worms crawling through my skeleton. Screaming in horrible pain, not being able to have a cool refreshing drink of water, feel the warm sunshine or a soft breeze, not have a hug or a kiss from my loved ones or enjoy a cheese and tomato sandwich. I used to have ham in my sandwich but pigs are unclean. They are poisonous.
No laughing matter. Serious stuff. A sobering thought to be sure. I feel that the dream is showing that accepting the Lord Jesus Christ and not doing anything else does not guarantee Heaven. Accepting the Lord Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior of your life is a commitment, like marriage, where you become born again, and the supernatural power of God begins to transform you. We are the appliance, Jesus is the power cord and our Creator is the socket. Life was meant to be lived "plugged in" to God with the switch turned on.
On that note, I will be headed to bed. I have a very vivid dream life, I have always had spiritual experiences and many many insights revealed to me through dreams.
God speaks to us all in our dreams.
